My Inspiration

Lately I’ve been struggling a lot. I’ve had no confidence in myself and have begun to really hate myself because I feel quite incapable as a human being. Furthermore, I see so much more evil in the world and have unfortunately turned pessimistic. In fact, the song “My Eyes” from Dr. Horrble’s Sing-Along Blog has become my mantra.

 

Last night, however, I saw a rare ray of light shining through my television set in the form of Malala Yousafzai. I was watching the Daily Show, and she appeared for an interview with Jon Stewart. This girl is simply amazing, and her beautiful comment about what she would do if  Taliban came to kill her was reminiscent of what one could expect from peace leaders like Ghandi or Martin Luther King, Jr.

Malala showed me there is certainly good left in the world. Like, i want to personally write her a letter conveying how she has helped me. Whenever I am feeling hopelessness, I will try to remember how simply beautiful this young girl is, and how she represents all the goodness of humanity-a goodness I wish to brandish in my own life.

I also listened to some RENT songs that also served as some supplemental inspiration to Malala’s insightful comments. The title song “Rent” is how I’ve been feeling a lot too-how can I leave the past behind when it keeps finding ways to get to my heart? How can I connect in an age where strangers, landlords, lovers, your own blood cells betray? Granted, I am blessed beyond belief, so I don’t know if I deserve to sing this song.

However, they say at the end, “When they act tough you call their bluff”.

I like that idea.

Finally, the song “Another Day”, but specifically Mimi’s part, discusses living in the moment. Leaving regrets behind to find love.  “Give in to love or live in fear”.  Not much else to say other than listen to it.

I am really tired of wasting my life being miserable. Everything feels overwhelming right now, but I’m going to do my best to figure things out.

College…Yeah…

Half days are quite wonderful. I’ve had an absolutely terrible week and a half…I’ve been really bad. This Sunday I felt great, but other than that…just no.

But, that is not what I’m here to discuss. I have finally decided the colleges I will be applying to.

There’s 7 of them…is that too many? I don’t think so.

My number one choice right now is probably Johns Hopkins University, which I visited and loved. It is followed very closely by Dartmouth College and the University of Rochester, all of which have great biology programs and are high level schools.

My safe school is Arcadia University, which is just plain adorable. I will also be applying to TCNJ because my parents would like me to apply to at least one in-state school, and TCNJ is a pretty darn good college.

I will also be applying to the University of Pittsburgh, because it is a less selective school that also has an extensive biology program, and Gettysburg College. Gettysburg is a really cool place, and it has a fairly varied Biology department and SAT scores in my range.

Yay!

College applications….that’s a whole other story. I’ve got my recommenders (except for my counselor, who needs additional papers from me) working on my recommendations, and my counselor has already sent my transcript to Johns Hopkins. I’m signed up for the SAT on Nov. 2nd but have to add the rest of my schools to the list to get the scores sent to.

My Common App has been started, and I believe the only things I need to work on are the essay, which I want to definitely revise, if not alter completely, and the list of activities.

I’ve been dreading this whole application process, but lately it’s been pretty exciting as the idea of it solidifies and different aspects of the application process begin to come together.

Wish me luck!